Self criticism.

A list of thoughts that are swirling around in my head. They are all related but I can't line them up into a coherent idea.

#1. Why is it that we can't live without an extreme amount of self criticism. In my mind self criticism and "productiveness" go hand in hand, but not for a healthy reason.

#2. What is productiveness anyway? In nature, a wild animal has a productive day when they find something good to eat and don't die. A wild animal's main concern is built into it's instincts, and reproduction is a driving force.

#3. So when did we suddenly become so civilized that sex is just something you do for fun unless you're planning on having a family.

#4. Animals know what stress is. A dog or cat feels stressed when they think their life is in danger or when they might get hurt. A person has a "LIFE CHANGING" event when they go through these events. We put so much gravity in the mundane that our mortality has to JUMP OUT AT US for us to take any notice, and when it does, we get featured on a TV show about surviving.

#5. Are we missing something here? We worry about so much imaginary shit that we literally can't tell the difference between "reality" and shit that we just make up. Having a home isn't reality, it's shit that we made up. Granted, we made it up a LONG time ago and many scientists feel that shelter is a major need for a human being to survive. But there are so many things that we surround ourselves with, things that we interact with our entire lives, things that we think of as "ours" or a "necessity" when in the real world it's all just shit people made up because they made life "better"

#6. At one time we dreamed that we were going to start colonizing the universe. When people started exploring the space around earth, we really got excited. It's still pretty damn exciting to me, but most people just don't share the same interest.

It made me depressed to learn that so many people are now struggling to find work after the shuttle program was shut down. We are facing hard times, but I feel that it's all self inflicted. There's nothing wrong with this earth! We need to stop blaming stuff that we can't control for things that we caused ourselves. And pointing fingers doesn't really help either.

#7. Politics are bullshit. And as many have said, anyone who is a good politician should NOT lead a country. It's just too bad that we set ourselves up for failure there.